Do your children know about your bedroom life ?

I think you are confusing the things going on in your life and your parents personal life. First off it is not irresponsible of your parents if you accidentally walked in on them. My guess is that are very few families where at some time at least one of the children have done this. Yes, it is difficult for a young child to understand, but as the grow older and learn about it generally makes sense. It is difficult why you have held this against your parents for this long when you now know they were engaged in a very personal, normal act of love. Adults have , some have more of it, and some have less, but it is generally around. The fact your sister "found" some indicates it was not out in the open but somehow buried somewhere in the house. When I was young most kids tore up their parents house trying to find the . So again I do not see having in the house as a irresponsible behavior. The fact your father treated his clients to "high cl escorts" while a little shady is a very common business practice. However, I do not see it as a meaning he has no respect for women. Finally, again in my opinion, having multiple abortions is not an irresponsible ual activity. You know nothing of your mother's reasons or needs for having those abortions. I am sure it was not an easy decision for her to make, and she did it for the best interests of the family which includes you and your sister. Multiple abortions are possible, I have had a number of abortions and know others who have had more as well with no adverse physical effects. When we are children we see our parents as completely differently people then we see them when we become adults. We suddenly find our parents our everyday people not a lot different then other adults. It seems to me your parents are pretty good people. They are in love with each other and not divorced like over 50% of the population. They gave you and your sister a good family life, so try to see them as the great parents they are who are very human but maybe a step above the general population. Do not look at them as some kind of unique perfect parents who a small girl sees when she is looking at her parents. We live in a big complicated world, try to live in it and not try to make something of your parents which they never were or never will be. Then step out and develop a life of your own with a family, and make that family the very best it can be applying the principals you learned from your parents.